Beloved Avatar Meher Baba Ki Jai!

Trust Office
Ahmednagar, Maharashtra, India
Friday, 22nd November, 2002

From Bhau:

To all dear ones,

Your prayers to Beloved Baba are heard by Him, and He is responding very well.

I am much better, and there is no doubt I am gradually making good progress. My health has been improving, day by day, ever since the time I started considering doctors as “barbers.” Now I am walking without any support, and I have stopped using a stick. Three Mothers (Mothers S, B and M) and Freeman walk along with me, so that if I fall, they may give some support. So far this has not happened. I just walk. Therefore, no one should worry about my health. I will remain alive as long as the Beloved wants me to remain in this gross world.

It is Beloved Baba's wish that I remain happy and cheerful even when I suffer. I fell down in Myrtle Beach while I was in bathroom, and that is why I could not go to the Barn on the last two days. When I went to LA, though I had intense pain, I still entered into a boxing match during the Sahavas. I knocked Fred Stankus out in no time, and everyone enjoyed it! Then I went to England, where many programs had already been arranged. I travelled to Norwich, to Brighton, and attended many programs in London, but nobody knew that I had intense pain. I would stand and embrace everyone. I was looking happy and cheerful, full of joy. If you have any doubts, you can see the pictures in the October issue of THE LOVE STREET LAMPPOST. See how I knocked down Fred Stankus, and how happy I was in England! It is Beloved Baba's compassion that He keeps me happy and cheerful.

It is a fact that suffering is His blessing, and those who love Him, they suffer. One day, they will come to know that suffering gives more joy than bliss, because suffering for the Beloved is blessed by the bliss from Him. And obedience to His wish takes one to have His blessing to enjoy bliss.

As I have said to various Baba lovers, “Your love touched my heart, and I know how you are thinking about me every day. Physically, I might not be so good, but internally I am strong. So you will be happy to know that the doctors are relaxing their restrictions about making movements. Therefore, please don't worry for me. Your blessings gave me strength, and how powerful you are! Thank you very much for your precious blessings.”

I went to Meherabad on Friday, 25th October, to attend the workers’ program and to distribute sweets and money to each one in celebration of Divali, the Festival of Light (which was held on the 4th November). Every year we do this in memory of our late Chairman, Miss Mani S. Irani [Baba’s sister].

And for a Baba couple in England, I dictated one prayer for the festival:

"May Beloved Avatar Meher Baba bless you with His love so that you long and long to light a lamp of His love in your heart and experience Diwali every day in your life."

On Saturday, 9th November, I went to Meherabad to see a play about the Two Kings and One Queen (which you have read about in THE NOTHING AND THE EVERYTHING). The Bombay group worked really hard on the play; they had been practicing four hours every night for four months. It was a good play, done very well. The group’s efforts were much appreciated, and they were very happy that I had attended.

Once, after He had asked me to write a play, Beloved Baba had said that the play based upon my writings would be staged all over the world. Yesterday, during the play, I felt, yes, this will happen. I never thought that anyone would make a play out of the writings, but it is now happening. About the songs, also, Baba had said, "So long as I remain alive, they will not be sung everywhere. But after I die, they will be sung everywhere."

When I saw the play yesterday, I felt how true Baba is. When Beloved Baba was telling me what would happen, I was thinking that he was doing it just to encourage me so that I may write. But now I find that what He said was true and not merely encouragement.

Because I cannot travel by car two days in a row, the following day, Sunday, 10th November, I was unable to go to Meherazad, even though I wanted to visit, as usual. Anyway, it is all right. Poor Eruch also suffered because of these restrictions, so why should I not suffer? I think it is destined.

I have been to Meherazad twice, for short periods. Since I did not go there on Sunday, it was possible for me to do so on Thursday [14th November] to attend the Ground Breaking Program for the Archives Building.

And, I have already started talks at Avatar Meher Baba Ahmednagar Centre in the Trust compound.

I also have an itch to go to Delhi, because the Golden Jubilee of Beloved Baba's visit will be held there. They are arranging a very big celebration. As you know, this year is also my own Golden Jubilee of meeting Beloved Baba. But I cannot go to the celebration because of medical restrictions. When I am allowed to visit Meherazad and Meherabad only once a week, how can even I dream of going to Delhi? Anyway, it is Beloved Baba's Wish.

The flow of foreign pilgrims here is still less because the economy of the USA must have been affected very much by the September 11th episode. This incident has affected the economic situation of all countries, and our flow of donations is also less this year. And the interest rate is going down and down. Still, the economy of India is not improving! The economic situation is going from bad to worse everywhere. I am mostly concerned about the economy of the Trust, and I find that it is going down and down because the rate of interest is going down and down.

Anyway, it is God's Divine Will, but not His Divine Wish. If His Divine Wish is followed, everything will become smooth. It appears that this will not happen until Beloved Baba's Universal Manifestation. Because He has been working for the world to make it aware, so that it will follow His Divine Wish, Illusion is very angry. More and more, Illusion is trying its best to show its power. That is why the world is facing tragedy. But there will be a great change, no doubt, when His Universal Manifestation takes place.

Beloved Baba is the only hope for the world. But it will take time.

Mehernath is well, but he is very busy with Trust work because he has to share half of what I was doing previously. Most of the time, he goes to different offices and deals with officials. When I was doing this work, I got so fed up with those officials that once I decided that I must possess one ghost. If the officials were to give me trouble, I would send the ghost to them.

And the problem would be solved.

But once I decided to do this, the ghosts, who would come to me practically every night after Beloved Baba dropped His body, stopped coming!

When I was keeping night watch near Baba, I was an obstruction for ghosts approaching Baba. Then, after He dropped His body, they started coming to me. I thought it would be good if I could send those ghosts to the officials. The ghosts would not harass me, and they would do some work!

But once I decided to do this, the ghosts stopped coming. Not a single ghost came to me!

I was then helpless. The ghosts also left me!

When Beloved Baba was in physical form, and I would keep night watch, they would come very often to try and approach Baba. But because I was there on watch, they would stay away.

At Meherazad, after Beloved Baba dropped His body, because He had given me writing work, I would write up until midnight or one o'clock in the morning. I was working 17-18 hours a day. When I would come out of my room, because it was summer, I would sleep in the veranda between my room and the Blue Bus. One morning, at about 1:00 a.m., I stopped writing and lay down in the bed.

I was still quite awake, and one ghost came, well dressed, wearing the clothes of a soldier. I cried out, "Thief! Thief!"

He did not move and remained standing before me. So I got up to beat him! He started running, and I was running after him calling out, "Thief! Thief! Thief!"

And then he disappeared.

Eruch was sleeping in his cabin. He woke up and came out, saying, "What happened!? What happened!?"

I said, "One thief had come, but he ran away!"

"How did he look?" Eruch asked me.

"He was well dressed, and he was wearing shoes, thick shoes,” I said. “But I remember that he was running, and still, there was no noise from his shoes."

Eruch laughed and said, "Go and sleep. Don't worry."

So not once, but many times, ghosts came to me. But when I decided to make use of them, they stopped coming. And since then, though I am eager to have them, they don't come!

In His Love and Service,

Bhau

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